i seem to be on a perennial high nowadays… i think it all started on the 15th of march, after a particular fateful L^2 party… my confidence in myself seems to have shot up… i seem to have become more arrogant… i haven’t been depressed once in this period… i have become more pragmatic… i have hardly lost my cool (except on a couple of occasions at JPM)… even a couple of drops of alcohol have been enuff to send me really high… (in fact the other day i got damn high that i had zipped at 70 kmph on the way from home to college… one of those rare days when the ring road was empty… )
in short, i’ve been generally feeling hajaar good about myself over this period… some things which i thought i can never live without have become dispensable now… certain relationship lines have been redrawn… i’ve stopped getting unduly worried in life…
i’ve become extremely aggressive… along with this has come arrogance… perhaps this side of me was seen last around five years ago when i had just cracked the JEE… in this period of time i’ve rejected a job… overloaded myself for this term in order to do “all courses which i like”…
coming to think of it, this thing hasn’t happened after any specific event… just one arbit party on campus which changed so much? should be something more to it…
however, sometimes i wonder if this is all a bubble which will burst at any point of time… however i’m sure that i’ll be well prepared for it (hopefully). there’s bound to be a time when i find myself that i ahve too much to do my hands… i start losing sleep… health suffers… everything else goes down along with it…
interesting… hmmm…. 🙂